2009年4月10日星期五

执友見證


I got a chance the other day to sit down having dinner with my father.

And it suddenly occurred to me that although we ate together for quite a few occasions, we had not been able to have the dinner table just to ourselves and we discussed and talked for some time after dinner.

My father is an Elder of our church and he sings the bass wonderfully. Father will turn 68 this year. Many years back, he suffered an unknown disease which started with flu-like symptoms. Not one week after the onset, he became hyperventilated and was admitted to a hospital for treatment. Soon after, he became too weak to even eat or drink and even in his sleep he had to use an oxygen mask to help him breath. The chest X-ray showed a big white patch.

Numerous tests were carried out to identify the disease but to no avail. Fluids were collected to determine if it was a bacterial infection into the lungs – it was negative. Blood tests were done to determine if it could be a systemic infection – negative also. However, results on major organ functions were turning bad. Bottles and bottles of antibiotic (Gentamicin), salt solutions were fed into my father’s veins, and at this stage, he developed jaundice. My father was transferred into the ICU, still breathing with the aid of oxygen mask. We investigated further on hepatitis & typhoid fever but the results were all negative. Repeated tests of suspected disease with incubation period were negative again.

Seeing my father’s laborious breathing condition and deteriorating health, the Specialist treating my father suggested to put him on the ventilator. Being on the ventilator meant that my father will be fully anesthetized, so that the equipment will help him breath and let the body rest. It was at that moment that our family realized how serious my father’s situation was.

After we prayed, we left father to the doctors’ hands. When we were allowed to see him again, he was peacefully sleeping. All we heard was just the beeps of equipments and the breath-in breath-out rhythm of the ventilator.

Friends from church and work, relatives and neighbors came and went. They sent their prayers, food, support and love. We were grateful to them. We practically stayed in the hospital 24hrs. Although I worked in the laboratory attached to the same hospital, I had to take leave as I needed to be around my father. I only went into the office to check the blood test results.

One Saturday night, his vital signs suddenly turned really bad and the ward called a few Specialists to perform emergency procedure to save my father’s life. I did not know of this at first, one of the Specialists told me a few days later.

When I saw father again on the Sunday after the emergency, his conditions had stabilized and from then on, he gradually improved and the ventilator was taken away. He started to breath normally again, the lung X-rays cleared. I just thought God had answered our prayers, and my father was getting better. At this time, almost 10 days after admitting into hospital, we got his Widal Weil-Felix results with high titre shown for Weil-Felix test – an indication of significant antibody rise in respond to Rickettsial infection.

The following days were filled with joy, to see father smile, saying a few words softly because the tube used to help his breathing somehow hurt the soft tissues in his throat. On the day my father was to be transferred back to general observation room, a Urologist who attended the same church happened to be visiting and he helped push my father’s bed all the way from ICU and helped shave my father’s face clean. All the nurses were so surprise as to why this patient is so special to deserve the service of this Urologist who is well known for his non-compromising ways.

It was later when I recalled what the Specialist said about the emergency on Saturday night, that I realized it was the Good Friday-Easter weekend when it happened. I have always felt that what my father went through during that incident symbolized what Christ had gone through when he was crucified on the cross.

It brought a whole new meaning to me on what Resurrection really is.

Today we are not able to feel how Jesus went through those moments of suffering under the ridicule and injustice of men, and then he was nailed on the cross, died, buried and descended into hell. But He rose victoriously on the third day, conquering death and brought us hope of salvation and eternal life. These are not something we deserve but because of love, we can own them if we want to.

It took me more than 10 years, to actually sit down and write this experience. I wanted to do this before I turn old and forgetful and I must thank all those who had helped us and prayed for us whenever we were in need. God bless.

7 条评论:

  1. 十多年走来,相信顺利的日子是多过困难的日子,甜蜜多过痛苦,每件事对信徒来说都有上帝的美意,就如在我们成长的过程中我们会经历顺境也有跌破头的时候,在经历的时候会感到受保护被爱,也会感到孤单被遗弃,现在回首会发觉这些经历对每个人来说是必须的,一切的经历都是帮助我们成长,更深认识那位拯救我们的神。
    两年前带了一家大小离开生活了几十年的马来西亚来到美国东北的一个小镇,虽然人生地不熟,有好多的东西需要去学习和适应,现在回想,上帝的带领奇妙,祂的恩典够用,诗艷在她的blog seeyeem.blogspot.com 写了蛮多我们在美国的点点滴滴。
    我的想法比较简单,不明白的地方就交托信靠,知道祂在我们的生命里有祂的计划并学习以感恩的心去看每件事,虽有时会跌倒失败,但会擦擦眼泪,寻求赦免重新来过。很多事是超过我们所能理解或改变,与其去钻牛角尖,不如信靠顺服。
    人生几十年很快就会过去,学习用正面,积极,感恩,谦卑,信靠的心去生活,天堂就如在人间。我在学习,希望你也跟我一起学习,愿上帝帮助我们。

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  2. 说得也是,感受痛苦时却在多年后才晓得那其实是得到。这种得失的感觉会有那么大的落差,应该是跟我们的年龄,也就是我们的经历有关吧。

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  3. 这些见证和生活上的经历是很个人的感受,我未必能体会你的情况,你也许不会感受我内心当时的焦虑。是否每一个基督徒都会面对生活上的困难或身体上的疾病,才可以领悟上帝的带领和知道是上帝的恩典呢?为什么当时的无助和彷徨的感觉,过后我们会说是恩典呢?
    我也可以说身体产生抵抗力,病就好了;你在外地生活,硬着头皮解决困难,久了朋友多了,自然就融入那儿的社群阿!
    可是就是有一句常听的话“冥冥中自有安排。。”,即使不认识上帝的人也感到世事难料,往往也是在事发过后觉得有一种力量的存在而为着事件的扭转发出惊叹!我虽不明白但只能感恩。

    我个人觉得相信上帝不是单单学习一套哲理那样的,寻道的人需要有切身体会,读经祷告的时候需要寻求圣灵的带领和光照,读经需要祷告随伴,祷告了也需读经。以人本为出发探讨圣经的话语不为过,但也不能缺少像孩子寻求更加亲近父亲的关系。为人父母者最了解那种一味被孩子指为多管闲事和做什么都是错的感受,还有整天孩子们不瞅不睬的关系是如何的僵!
    是的,但愿我们一同学习。

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  4. 其实我是觉得我们相信上帝只有一个意义,得救恩。我从来都不同意当与人分享福音时说信上帝后,上帝会赐我们平安啦,喜乐啦。。。那请问,有一天这位刚信主的发生什么事情后,他会倒回来问你,当初你不是说上帝赐平安吗?你又开始解释什么上帝让事情发生有上帝的美意啦,基督徒也有苦难啦。。。他又问你,上帝赐喜乐吗?为何耶稣给人的印象都没有喜乐的感觉?圣经有那里告诉我们耶稣很喜乐?你又开始解释什么耶稣心里很喜乐。。。

    我要说的是我们信上帝就只有为了得救恩,其他平安喜乐都是BI-PRODUCT。每个信主肯定会上天堂,但不是每个信主会有平安喜乐。我也从来不同意作如此的见证:感谢神医治了我父亲!父亲病好了就是上帝的医治,病不好就说上帝有其他的美意?非信徒都在说基督徒最会自圆其说也不是没有道理。

    对不起,语气重了点。其实一路来我非常欣赏你的思考,因为我也是喜欢从不同角度思考的人。

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  5. 信仰或是自己與上帝的关系真的是一件非常个人的事情。其中的感受真的是如鱼饮水,冷暖自知呀。

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  6. 每个人信主的经历都不尽相同,多半是因为神在我们或身边的人行了一些奇妙的事。这些经历都是真实和主观的但却不是信仰的全部,我们必须追求成长,离开基督道理的开端,亲身在生活中去体验神所应许那丰盛的生命。从信主到见主面是一条漫长的人生道路,基督徒必须经历人生的甜酸苦辣,也在这些经历中学习感恩,信靠,顺服的功课,让神的生命,圣灵的果子从我们生命中流露出来。
    在这次全球经济萧条的影响下,有多少的生意失败又有多少人失去工作收入,前路茫茫啊!基督信仰在这时除了讲天堂外能提供些什么呢?
    “我将这些事告诉你们,是要叫你们在我里面有平安。在世上,你们有苦难;但你们可以放心,我已经胜了世界。”耶稣这句话对你我有什么意义呢?耶稣叫我们看天上的飞鸟,田野的百合到底要我们学习什么呢?
    上帝当初创造人类,把人安置在美丽的伊甸中以分享祂的爱,团契,丰盛,荣耀。。。。。当人放罪堕落,人失去这一切,上帝的救恩是要与人恢复当初创造时的亲密关系。当我们有了神的新生命时,其实天堂的生活就已经开始了,我们对人,对己,对环境。。都不在一样了。
    耶稣说,我来了是叫羊(人)的生命,并且得的更丰盛。让我们在生活的得失中,顺境逆境中体验祂的丰盛吧。
    愿与您共勉。

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  7. 耶稣降生的那一夜,天使天兵赞美神说:(路加2:14)“在至高之处荣耀归与神!在地上平安归与他所喜悦的人!”受难之前,耶稣说:(约3:3-7)“我实实在在地告诉你,人若不重生,就不能见神的国。。人若不是从水和圣灵生的,就不能进神的国。。我说:你们必须重生。。”(约10:10)“。。我来了,是要叫羊得生命,并且得的更丰盛。”(约14:27)“我留下平安给你们;我将我的平安赐给你们。。”(约15:11)“这些事我已经对你们说了,是要叫我的喜乐存在你们心里,并叫你们的喜乐可以满足。”(约16:33)“我将这些事告诉你们,是要叫你们在我里面有平安。在世上,你们有苦难;但你们可以放心,我已经胜了世界。”耶稣复活之后,常对爱祂的人说:“愿你们平安!”

    按照(约3:3-7),信徒若没重生就不得救。重生是从水和圣灵生,我们不单要悔改相信真理,接受基督成为我们的救主;还要让圣灵管理我们的生命,接受基督成为我们生命的主。保罗说(加5:22-23)“圣灵所结的果子,就是仁爱、喜乐、和平、忍耐、恩慈、良善、信实、温柔、节制。”重生带来圣灵的果子,也带来丰盛的生命。信徒生命中如果没有圣灵的果子,就当好好审察:是否重生得救?信徒没有平安喜乐,我们应该积极引导他认识真理,鼓励他把生命交给圣灵管理,让他的生命更丰盛。

    传福音传讲救恩是必定的。可是,如果世上的基督徒都和非信徒没有分别,谁将有兴趣信耶稣呢?非信徒不认识基督,他们接触到的只是我们这些基督徒;所以基督徒的生命言行,不是在荣耀基督,就是在羞辱基督。其实,他们每天都用眼睛看,用耳朵听,用心灵感受,尝试从基督徒身上认识基督;所以我们当彰显基督的生命,活出美好的见证。要叫一个人信耶稣,信徒的生命言行生活见证,其实远比传福音时所说的话有影响力。所以我们应当警醒,千万不要成为他人信主的绊脚石。其实,传福音应该靠圣灵的大能。如果没有圣灵光照,非信徒不明白也不愿意承认他们的罪,更加不认为他们需要救恩。反之,如果有圣灵感动,我们什么都还没说,他们其实已准备好接受耶稣。而且,传福音并不是信徒决志就可功成身退。决志只是信仰的起点,我们还得帮助决志者在真理和灵命上长进,确定他重生得救拥有丰盛的生命。一个人决志信主有如一个婴孩的诞生;我们总不能让婴孩生下来,然后叫他自生自灭。我们一定要喂养他,引导他靠主过得胜的生活,让基督的生命从他身上显露出来。。不然,他会在这个世界迷失了方向,那当然就没有平安喜乐了。现在,许多非信徒看到这样的基督徒,都说基督徒是言行不一的伪君子;那里还要信耶稣成为另一个伪君子呢?我想,这就是教会不能复兴的主要原因吧!

    (路加17:11-19)记载:耶稣治好了十个长大麻风的,后来只有一个撒马利亚人回来感谢祂归荣耀与神。耶稣说:“洁净了的不是十个人吗?那九个在那里呢?除了这外族人,再没有别人回来归荣耀与神吗?”就对那人说:“起来,走吧!你的信救了你了。”我们从神领受了他的救恩和丰富的恩典,就不能忘记感谢神。神为我们所做的一切,其实都在激励我们怀着感恩的心来到祂面前。一篇感恩见证,其实出于信徒感恩的心,只是想对上帝说一声感谢,也将荣耀归给神。我相信这是上帝所喜悦的。人类其实非常渺小;我们的生命,其实都不在我们掌控之内。病得医治,不懂感恩的人可以说自己很会保健,身体康复得快。。懂得感恩的人却看见,实际上是上帝的保守与恩典,所以亲人还留在身边。病不得医治,伤心总是难免的,我们不会说这是上帝的美意,却相信亲人已脱离肉身的痛苦,安息主怀。而且,我们拥有永生盼望,可以盼望和过世的亲人来日再相见。上帝不曾应许天色常蓝,苦难却不会让我们与神的爱隔绝,所以在苦难之中,我们仍然可以靠着基督得享平安喜乐。这是基督徒在基督里的属天福气。而不是自圆其说!

    寻道者,对不起,以上其实是我对CK之评论的一些不同看法。对于这一篇见证,我只有一句话:“愿荣耀归与神,平安归给祂所喜悦的人。谢谢分享!”我其实只在学习当中,如有错误,请多多指教!

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